I’m going to begin this post as vulnerably and truthfully as possible by being very straightforward with you.
Throughout my life, I’ve struggled with depression. Often.
Mental health is notand has never been my forte,ever since I was a little kid.
I’m not cool with feeling depressed, or hopeless, or like I have no shot at living the life of my dreams.
I owe it to myself, my family, my friends, and the world to do as well as I can. I owe it to my little brother.
There are so many things that can help a person deal with feeling depressed and hopeless – meditation, exercise, proper nutrition, good sleep habits, spiritual development, proper connection with other people, and a million other things.
Although all of these things are essential, there’s one thing I’ve been spending a lot of time contemplating something in the past year:
Specifically, properly communicating with others what’s on my heart, and learning how to honor my heart.
I’d like to share a quote with you from a book:
“We aredesire. It is the essence of the human soul, the secret of our existence. Absolutely nothing of human greatness is ever accomplished without it. Not a symphony has been written, a mountain climbed, an injustice fought, or a love sustained apart from desire. Desire fuels our search for the life we prize. Our desire, if we will listen to it, will save us from committing soul=suicide, the sacrifice of our hearts on the altar of “getting by.” The same old thing is not enough. It never will be.
~John Eldridge, The Journey of Desire
My heart is my engine – it drives me. My heart is also the conduit of my soul – it connects me to the people and world around me.
My heart’s interior is defined by the unique dreams and desires that I have, and that I was born with.
I fundamentally believe every single one of usis born with unique dreams and desires within our hearts. I also believe a life dedicated to fulfilling those dreams and desires can be a life verywell-lived.
I’ve experienced this firsthand – many of the times I’ve chased the dreams and desires of my heart have been the times I’ve felt the mostalive, in-flow, and engaged with the world around me!
I LOVE feeling like this. It’s what I live for!
These times of intense flow, passion, and engagement have also been the times I’ve learned the most about myself!
It takes time to discover our unique dreams and desires, but once we do, it’s important that we make a conscious decision to 1. define them, and to 2. honor them.
When we’ve defined our dreams and desires, we become clear about three things:
What we want
Where we’re going
Why we want to go there
For a long time, I didn’t know what my desires were. Over time, and as I exposed myself to different, scary, or challenging experiences, I slowly became clearer and clearer, but they were sort of just floating in my subconscious.
I’m crystal clear. And I’m honoring this clarity and myself by taking massive action.
First, I’m defining them in writing via a simple exercise.
I’m writing about them because it’ll hold me accountable to them, and I’m writing about them because I hope that it may inspire others to develop similar clarity and direction in their own lives.
This writing exercise is very simple, and the goal is this: clearly, concisely, and directly state the desires of your heart.
What do you want?!
Sky’s the limit. Err, actually, mankind is going to space very soon, so there are actually literally zero limits.
This isn’t “What do you want in the context of society?”
It’s not “What do you want within reason?”
No. Be unreasonable.
Allow yourself to be as limitless as possible in this exercise. Be courageous with your heart!In the past, I’ve been cowardly with my heart, and I’ve rarely allowed myself to “be limitless” in my thinking, but I through introspection and the help of wise mentors, I realized that this wasn’t serving me, my life, my purpose, or mankind as a whole.
Write your list, and don’t worry if the desires of your heart change on a daily basis. That’s healthy and totally okay. Writing this list will give you a better sense of who you are, and self knowledge is incredibly valuable, on both a personal and global level.
The list you’re about to read is the direction Iwantto take my life, and by honoring these desires, I’m making the conscious decision to turn up the volume on my life, honor the heart that God intentionally gave me, and do my best to be me, for the sake of myself, my loved ones, and for humanity.
I want to be the healthiest, happiest, most productive and alive version of me that I can be. Period!
I want to become more skillful in amplifying love and truth on a daily basis
I want to become much better at both singing and dancing – I find so much joy and flow in these activities.
I also want to be extremely physically fit, with an impressive shredded physique that’s capable of great feats of strength, agility, and endurance. I want to develop an extremely healthy gut microbiome, and I want a body as free of the toxicity of the modern world as possible. I want to develop an extremely high oxygen saturation of the cells and mitochondria within my body, minimizing my risk for disease and maximizing my performance abilities.
Specifically, I’d like to get to the point where I can do at least 40 push ups on one breath hold using the Wim Hof technique, or hold my breath for 4 minutes continuously.
I also want to develop the strength and endurance necessary to become a competitive Spartan Racer
I want to be capable of running a mile in 5m45s or less, I want to bench press 250lbs, I want to squat at least 350lbs, and I want to deadlift at least 450lbs
I want to practice yoga and martial arts (I’m thinking jiu jitsu and krav maga)
I want to solve the riddle of the mysterious physical health issues I’ve dealt with throughout my life, so that I can use this information to educate others on their own journeys of healing from similar affliction.
I want to heal my heart, mind, and subconscious of the traumas of my childhood and adolescence. I want to reach true peace and reconciliation about the relationship I had with my mother. I want to dive deep into the scarier memories of that relationship, and therapeutically work to heal them.
Upon developing such a high level of physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual health, I want to do my part to coach students that desperately and earnestly want to learn to improve themselves, too.
I want to develop my communication skills, and come to an appreciation of the true power of my voice! I want to hone and develop my rhetoric and public speaking abilities so that I can express myself as clearly, truthfully, and persuasively as possible. I want to use the power of my voice to create positive order in the world wherever possible, to increase the health of our planet, and to similarly heal and inspire people.
I want to live an adrenaline-filled life chock full of action and adventure. I want to get skydive certified and jump out of airplanes. I want to fly in more helicopters, surf more epic waves, and attract incredible opportunities to do epic things into my life. Furthermore, I want to develop the social influence necessary to become one of the most sought after photographers/filmmakers/content creators in the world, paid to produce the content that Iwant to produce! I want to partner with brands like McLaren, Ferrari, Lamborghini, Ducati, Tesla, Space X, H&K, Sig Sauer, Devolro, athletic apparel companies, destination resort companies, helicopter tour companies, skydiving companies, Formula 1 racing groups, and more.
I want to produce the most epic photo and video content around these subjects, so that I can inspire others to believe that it’s possible to live and adventurous life as a real-life action hero! I want to be soactively engaged in creative projects that excite me that I actually forget to eat food or go to sleep at night!
I want to create a clothing company that manufactures high quality, super cool, mission-driven athletic apparel. I want to use my skills in branding, social media marketing, networking, and communication to make this brand a success, and I want a portion of our profits to go towards measurable social good.
Specifically, we manufacture activewear with an emphasis on superhero themes, as well as classy, minimalist, high quality design elements. Camo is a must, too. White camo, Black camo, grey camo, blue camo, etc… and in epic digital camo variations.
I want the social influence necessary to be able to create opportunities for my friends to similarly share their gifts with the world, and to be compensated in return.
I want coastal properties in Hawaii and North County San Diego that I can share with my friends, and whomever I choose to creatively collaborate with. I want these to be sacred spaces for contemplation, creation, and connection.
I want to be surrounded by an awesome and powerful tribe of highlycreative ad skilled people that are similarly committed to bettering themselves, supporting one another, and using their gifts to better humanity. I want to build incredible things with them, explore the sacred sites of the world with them, uncover and expose global corruption with them, and I want to make the most epic videos, movies, and content possible with them.
Last, but certainly not least, I want a relationship with a woman that is similarly committed to courageously developing herself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I want to attract a woman in my life that, like me, is of course super nerdy. I also want her to be beautiful, intelligent, athletic, and passionate about the wellbeing of mankind and planet Earth. I want to be able to run through jungles, climb mountains, wade through rivers, and jump off cliffs with her around – and I want to make movies with her about all of it! I want a relationship with her that will create a powerful upward spiral in our lives, and is centered on relentless improvement of ever aspect of our being! I want a woman that is acutely aware of my capacity to be heroic, and will push me and hold me to this high standard. Perhaps this woman is already in my life, or perhaps I’ve yet to find her… time will tell.
Also… I want to go to fucking space.Yup. That’s a big one. I want to travel to space, and potentially even visit other planets in our solar system once we’ve developed the technology necessary to do so. I definitely want to visit the moon, and maybe even mars.
Whew. There we go. That’s my list. Pretty extreme. It’s liable to change. Who knows… a year from now, I might have hair past my shoulders, a robe, and membership in a buddhist temple somewhere in Nepal… but it’s unlikely. I’ll most likely be jumping out of an airplane instead.
I encourage you to write your own. Seriously… do it. Get clear on what you want.There are no limits. Don’t be reasonable or rational in your dreaming or desiring.
After all, clinical psychology reveals to us that joy and happiness aren’t necessarily achieved by attaining goals, but instead in the process of striving towards them.
Write this for you… not necessarily for anyone else. You don’t have to post it online, but you can. I’m choosing to, because I know I’ll love looking back at it someday, and the “public factor” is some nice added motivation for staying on track.
If you feel called to post your desires in the comments, I encourage and ask you to do so. I would love to read through and be inspired by your passion. You can set yourself to anonymous.
The desires within your heart are yoursto honor!
Pay attention to them.
Be honest with yourself about them.
This life you’re living is yourdream.
Live it, baby.
Much love. I wish you all energy, action, good health, and peace.